I have been doing a lot of waiting since October. I would love to say that I have been waiting patiently… but that just isn’t so.
It all started October 29, 2014… which happens to be my birthday. It also happens to be the day that Korey J. Traylor (wonderful, God-Sent man) got on one knee and asked me to marry him. Thus the waiting game began! The moment I said yes, the countdown to our wedding date commenced (today we’re at t-minus 159 days). It seems as if the time is passing quickly and slowly at all at once (I think only Korey will understand that). If this were the only waiting game, it wouldn’t be too bad. But there’s more.
In February the application process for the assistant principal pool opened up in my school district. I applied. Then I waited. I finally got a phone call to schedule my interview. Then I waited. I went to the interview (which I felt really good about) sometime in March. I was told I’d probably find out the decisions in April. So I waited. That blasted letter came after I checked my mailbox approximately 1.9 billion times. The letter said, “We are pleased to tell you that you have been chosen to be in our assistant principal pool of candidates which guarantees that your name will be presented to the principals who have openings for possible consideration (yay!)… should a principal select you for an interview, he/she will contact you in the near future in order to schedule a time.” That was April 28th. To date, I have been waiting 20 days for a principal to contact me.
The truth is, the letter says being in the pool doesn’t guarantee a position for the upcoming school year. As a matter of fact, it doesn’t even guarantee an interview. There is a chance that no one will contact me at all.
So, I decided to put myself on the transfer list in an effort to gain more administrator-like experience. I am open to transfer to a school for a Testing Coordinator position or an Instructional Specialist position. Both positions would give me more experience and insight into the administrators world.
I was under the impression that not many of these positions would be open, however, I have had an interview for both positions. I interviewed for a Testing Coordinator position and waited about two weeks to receive an email that stated, “you had a strong interview but we decided to go with another candidate.” I also interviewed for an Instructional Specialist position. This time I only waited one day to receive a “we went with another candidate” phone call.
…and so the waiting continues.
This is what I feel:
- All the doors are closed.
- I missed my chance.
- There is no “new” place for me.
This is what I know:
- ” For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
- “Endurance produces perseverance; perseverance character; and character, hope.” Romans 5:3
- “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5
With getting married, I know when that is. I know where I need to be and what time I need to be there. I’m so excited I can barely stand it. That’s what makes this waiting hard.
For my work future, I am practicing having faith in what I know, and not in how I feel. In the meantime, I’ll just wait.